AMODA'S BLOG

GOOD-BYE NONDUALITY

Good-bye nonduality. Good-bye dwelling in the pristine perfection of the absolute. Good-bye unbounded happiness, unbounded joy, unbounded peace .. or unbounded anything that denies the dirt and grit of the human experience. Please, don’t get me wrong. I’m not suggesting a regression to ignorance of true nature. I’m not suggesting a resignation to ego’s reactivity….

The Path of the Mystic

The path of the Mystic is beyond words. It is a fall into the Heart of Darkness in which the self is sacrificed over and over again. The mystic dies into God and yet returns to the World to offer the self as the ultimate sacrifice. This offering serves the totality, it is the giving…

The Unbroken Amidst the Broken

When I was a child, I told my mother I wanted to be a nun. She slapped me. If only she had asked why I had said that, I would have told her it was because my true home was the silence inside me and I wanted to live here all the time. In my…

The End of Resistance is the Beginning of Grace

People often read about my story of hardship in my early years. And conclude that suffering is a prerequisite for awakening. But it truly has nothing to do with circumstances. It has everything to do with the depth of existential anguish that comes when you’ve truly had enough of the torture of your own mind…

They call me a Spiritual Teacher but I have Nothing to Teach.

They call me a spiritual teacher. But I have nothing to teach you. I have no method to offer. No techniques. No practices. No A to Z. There is no path, no way, no guarantee of results. I’m not interested in selling you a product, in packaging a teaching, in feeding the acquisitive mind with…

Enlightenment is an Illusion

More and more, I come to see that enlightenment is an illusion. Part of the same matrix that keeps us believing in separation. Upheld by millennia of religion and spiritual tradition. Upheld by the self that wants to escape the existential agony of having incarnated as form. As if there is another world that cradles…

Awakening

Awakening is not a lifestyle option. It’s not something that you add to your spiritual shopping basket, yet another commodity to satisfy the acquisitive mind. It’s not something to make you feel good about yourself, to make you feel special or worthy, or to make you feel more spiritual. And it’s not a marker of…

Unbounded Openness

When all you want to do is run to your cave and hide, can you still turn your face towards the world? When you believe yourself to be lower than a worm, can you still stand tall with tender dignity? Can you burn in the fire of shame .. and know you are perfect in…

The Path of the Warrior

To rest in silence, to know yourself as silence, and to move from silence .. this is the path of the true warrior. A true warrior is not at war with anyone or with the world – there is no aggression, no violence, no enemy. If you are true warrior, even when someone comes along…

Be a Hollow Bamboo

It’s a great practice to be a hollow bamboo, whether you’re meditating or sitting in stillness, whether you’re moving about your day doing the washing up, or driving a car, or whatever it is. Whether you’re at work or have a task, whether it’s a creative project, whatever it is. Just spend five minutes, right…

Love is the Master

My “teaching” doesn’t promise you a life of unending bliss. It shows you how to bear the unbearable. I’m not interested in how spiritual you are. I’m interested in how willing you are to stand as openness in the face of brokenness and loss. I don’t care if you have realized the most absolute truth….